I am so bored!

It’s 2 minutes to 1am, and gosh I’ve never felt so crap… There’s worse I guess but I’m stuck in that kind of feeling where you’re bored and a little tired, but you don’t want to go to bed yet. By now I’d be tossing and turning in my hot sheets in bed, mind busy thinking about countless stuff…
Like about life. What am I gonna do with my life? I’m still figuring it out, I’ve freshly graduated from school last year and I can’t find a job anywhere, and neither do I wanna study anything, let alone learn anything just yet.
I didn’t do the best in school because I never really bothered. Most of the time I’ve just been getting drunk, stuffing on the computer alot, and thinking about boys that never lasted a month (actually, over 2 weeks).
There’s just so many opportunities out there, and the sky is the limit… I’ve got all these goals and dreams I’ve been visualising, yet is scares me cause… What if I fail at life?? I’m no longer stuck in the 5 day a week 8am-3pm school bullcrap… And it still amazes me now that I’ve gone through 12 years of education I unbotherdly taken in, it has gotten by pretty quick. What SCARES me even more is that years ago seems to be like hours ago. Omg!

I’m reminding myself that IT IS still the beginning of a new year, changes and 2010 fulfillments have yet to be done. I’m still a little jail bait… Maybe that’s why no one wants to hire me, or want anything to do with me :(

SIGH. I should really get to bed. Really, really much so.